2004-02-20 - 10:33 p.m.
I had another panic attack at work today, it's been over a year since the last time I've felt that way. Just being around all of the people scared the shit out of me, what scares me the most is how directionless my life is. I have no idea where I'm going in life, I just want to feel okay about something for once instead of worrying all of the time. I should be graduating highschool this year, but instead I'm just sitting at home, lost in my own mind. What really scares me about the way I am is that I'll never be able to find someone to love me, I can barely leave the house let alone go to social events. I really don't know what's going on right now, life is just so fucked up.