Sunday, July 27, 2008

The X-Files: I Want To Believe

This post has been moved to my new movie review blog, MovieGeek

Monday, July 21, 2008

Compulsion

I write because I am compelled to write, not because I have anything in particular to write about. I wish I could write interesting fiction, my brain simply doesn't seem to come up with ideas fit for that sort of thing. So I am relegated to writing about the happenings within my own life, whether they be interesting or not.

I have had a couple of weeks here where the bad has outweighed the good. It was to be expected, that sort of thing always happens when I get my hopes up. I'm through the worst of it now I believe. I feel better today, despite the fact that physically I feel horrible. For some reason my body is just not happy today. I am all shaky and my muscles ache, I am sick to my stomach and have a headache. I can't possibly be getting sick, I've already been sick once this year.

I find myself, once again, unemployed. Mostly out of lack of effort. If I wanted to I'm sure I could go out and get a job fairly easily. It's simply a matter of defeating my own mind and forcing myself to do so. At this point I'm waiting on a job at the Community College library. My friend works there and it seems like a good job to occupy my time and make a little money. I should still be making just enough money from the 6 stores that we still count to pay the car payment. As soon as I do get another job I doubt I will want to do that anymore though.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Insert Whining Here

There's nothing to say that hasn't already been said before. *insert whining here* That is all.

Sunday, July 06, 2008

Just Friends

It happened again. "Just Friends" Just like every other time I've fallen for someone. At least I didn't try to kiss her like I wanted to. That would have made things even worse. This always happens with the girls I meet, but not before I've managed to become desperately into them. Now I start the healing process all over again. Just wonderful.

Saturday, July 05, 2008

It's Happening Again

It's happening again. I'm falling for this girl way too fast. Apparently it's just a part of my personality that this happens to me. I feel like I'm doing something wrong. Sometimes I think she likes me, sometimes I think she doesn't. Sometimes I think she wants to just be friends, sometimes I think she wants to be more than friends. I'm just so confused, I suppose that's the way it's supposed to be with women though. I've never really had the issue before, of not knowing how they feel about me. I'm generally really good at determining how people feel about me, but with her it's just a mystery. I don't want to push it too hard for fear of screwing things up, but I don't want to play it cool too long for fear that she will find someone else. It's quite the conundrum.