Constant Fear

Sometimes I feel like I'm going in circles. I keep searching for what I want and just when I think I've found it, something happens and I have to go back to the beginning. I wish I could break out of this circle and start going in a line instead. I'm trying so hard to change things for the better, but I am afraid. I'm afraid that everything that I'm hoping for is going to fall apart. This is what I live with, constant fear.