Monday, December 24, 2007

Virginity

I am honestly beginning to believe that I am going to live out my entire life as a virgin. I really can't see myself in any situation where I will have the opportunity to have sex. Hell, I can't even see an opportunity arising that I will even be able to be more than friends with a girl. Simply because of the fact that I want it so badly that it's just never going to happen. It's been about 5 and a half years since a girl actually reciprocated any feelings that I had for them, and even longer than that since the last time I kissed a girl. So long that quite a few of the people I know didn't even know me then. It's certainly a sad state of affairs, and I don't understand how to fix it. I will leave nothing behind in this world when I die, which I suppose is okay, I wouldn't have to worry about leaving anything important behind. Also, I'll never have to worry about losing anyone I love so I suppose that's also a good thing. I really can't comprehend how someone can be so in love and lose that person and ever be able to move on. I would be an even sorrier mess than I am now.

1 comment:

exes and ohs said...

hey hey, just browsing other blogs and i ran into yours. just wanted to say that sex wont make you happy for long. so instead of worrying about being a virgin just be yourself and dont be afraid of who you are. confidence is one of the best qualities to have. confidence gets you girlfriends. and girlfriends eventually give you sex. anyway, that advice was with the hope that you dont just want a one night stand, but a meaningful first time.