Wednesday, August 22, 2007
So here I find myself again, up in the middle of the night when I should be sleeping. My brain won't let me sleep. I wish I could sleep forever and never have to leave my dreams, everything is so much easier in dreams because I know that it's not real. There's something broken inside of me and I don't think I will ever be able to fix it. No matter how well things go for me I just can't be happy. It's illogical and it drives me insane. It's not like I have a terrible life or something, but this thing inside me just makes me feel horrible all the time. It doesn't make any sense and I don't know what to do about or how much longer I can go on this way.